What A Day...

hahaha... I never thought it will be like this... Well, I just had a bad day yesterday and I'm expecting today as a bad day too... well, to refresh my memory... I got a low grade in my Literature Activity.. blame it to my not functioning very well hand/wrist... i guess i got a sprain... Well, going back to my day... I went earlier than expected.. i brought lots of things for the next day when my mom prepared my baon and when i arrive in school and I went to the gym for a general assembly... the thought that general assembly will just happen within 30 mins. or earlier... but no... the said assembly cause us not to have our class the whole day.. hahaha.. funny ryt?? Well, we are preparing for our school's foundation days.... and we had series of practice.... then, i just notice that its already 5:00 pm... what a short time! So, i decided to go home... just then, my classmate ask me to make her costume for the waste in fashion... and my chinese lantern for our dance... i brought many things in going home... hahah... and i was just riding on a cab.... i don't know if how did i do it.... then, when i got home.. my wrist ache again.. so i got a medicine and i work for all the things that i need to do in with a broken wrist.. hahah..... what a day indeed... with a broken wrist... i was able to do things that made other people happy...

Just then, i realize that we don't need to be perfect just to make other people happy... we just need to be ourselves and help other people with your whole heart...
To everyone... I can't say anything except help and be kind to others... coz when you know that you made someone happy and see him/her with a smile... it will make you feel happier and proud of yourself...

Thank you everyone and God Bless...

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-Dai Xu Na :->


I Love My Fellow Jadeans... And I thank them for all the things that they've done for me....

Friendship...

hahaha... for this time... I won't take about the sacrifices that I made for this day but for a nice thing that happened to me yesterday... I was really busy last night perparing my costume for our Presentation this Saturday when something pop out my mind.... hehehe... checking my YM and Multiply Account or other accounts that I have... When I was able to Chat with someone... named Charlene... Well, she's my new friend.. just chatted with her last night... And we have something in common... well, I just won't mention it but we knew what is it... hehehe... Xie Xie Charlene..!!! Hope to know you more.... and I hope Destiny is in the side of our Friendship....

Wan An....!!!

...Dai Xu Na...

Have you ever heard the song 'Your Guardian Angel' by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus??? Try to listen to it and you'll know what true love means... SACRIFICE... Well, from the chorus it says:


I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you
Through it all
Even if saving you
Sends me to heaven

That's true love.. No matter how it hurts... You're still loving 'coz your love just depends on the happiness of the person you love....

Fei Cui... Jade, well... The Jade Necklace, I mean... The Story itself shows the real meaning of love... Loving someone means, being kind and being unselfish... I am not really ramiliar of those International Songs... I'm an OPM fan... or supporter... but because of my classmate, she asked me to listen to this song and I was deeply touched by its lyrics... For me, it's a nice song and a song suitable for the Jade Necklace Story.....

Tsai Tien...!!! 'til next post....

My Favorite Sport.... A Sport With Sacrifice...

Well, almost all of us are involved in Sports... Whether it may be Badminton, Swimming, Tennis, Golf, Softball and how can I forget the famous Sport, Basketball. Many thought basketball is a game that when you will be able to gain points it's already fine. But no, that's wrong. In order to be a basketball player you need to Sacrifice something. Aside from the time and effort during practices we need to consider another thing and for me, as a player (well, not really I'm playing basketball for fun and enjoyment but actually I'm learning something out from it) and as an observer (my brother is a player and I used to go with him during games and practices to carry his bag) It's more than time and effort and for me it's the hardest thing. That is to control our eagerness to shot the ball even though we know we can't make it. I was able to watch different kinds of basketball game; a game which involve chaotic players, disciplined players, boastful players, humble players, selfish players and selfless players. Of all those that I mentioned, the kind of player that I like the most are those that are selfless. Well, we all know that basketball is all about cooperation and teamwork. As I watch a certain basketball game between two teams... I was able to come up with a realization that the team who won is worth it. Why? Beacuse the winning team's players are not selfish. I mean, they are controlling their eagerness and they are waiting for the right time... 'They can score whenever they want but they are also considering the other players who have lower points than they do.' as what a sports analysts says... They are sacrificing for others... That's why, I love that team...

I Speak..

Well, Sacrifice napud... As usual.. I'm used to it naman gud.. ni ingon gani ang ako usa ka classmate nga angay na daw ko himuan ug monumento... Pero I don't think that's favorable... mahal man gud kaayo.. Well, I just would like to thank the people whose with me all throughout my life... My new friends, my old friends, my plastic friends, my true friend, my close friends and everyone... thank you so much.. I will cherish every moment that I'm with you.. coz every moment I spend with you.. Feeling naku.... I rock! hehe.. jowk... Ahhmmmm,, I'll try to update this blog daily or as soon as I can.. hehehe... Thanks guys!!!

Ang continuation sa Story,,, next time na naku i-butang.. hehehehe...

Hi Ibal!!! Hi Dave!!! Hi Corinne!!! Hi Rizel!!! Hi Jadeans.....

Happy Birthday LENNY!!! Thank You sa Donut... hehehe.. nabusog ko....

A Long Story

Papalapag na ang eroplanong sinasakyan ni Jaizel at ng mga kaibigan niya sa Mactan International Airport. Galing sila sa isang Study Tour sa Beijing, mahigit dalawang buwan din silang namalagi doon at ngayon nga ay umuwi na sila. “Too bad our China Exploration is over. Nandito na uli tayo sa Pilipinas, bakit ba kasi hindi tayo nag-extend doon?” sabi pa ni Janine, matalik na kaibigan ni Jaizel “Okey na ako sa stay natin doon, for me it’s already fine at least nakapag-libot tayo ng kaunti as well as may nalaman pa tayong mga bagong Chinese words. Ikaw Jaizel? Kanina ka pa tahimik diyan ah, ano? Kakausapin mo na ba ang parents mo na doon ka na mag-aaral?” sabi naman ni Izza, sa pito nilang magkakabarkada, si Jaizel ang full Chinese at ang iba sa kanila ay ½ lang at ang mga magulang din niya ay pabalik-balik lang sa China o kahit sa ibang parte ng mundo. “Hindi ah, mas gusto ko sa Pilipinas. Ayaw ko doon masyadong complicated ang buhay, mabuti pa dito pwede akong makakapag-relax and there I will also have a hard time in expressing myself.” Sagot naman niya “You’re such a simple person Jaizel, kahit na mayaman kayo you still prefer to live a simple life. True, you’re living in a mansion with guards! Your family own big establishments here in the province, you’re rich, intelligent, pretty and above all, ang bait mo! What more can you ask for?“ sabi pa ni Janine “Alam niyo kung ano ang kulang sa kanya?” sagot pa ni Izza “Ako, alam ko. Lovelife! Meron ka nga halos lahat pero mabuti pa kaming hindi masyadong mayaman at maganda may mga boyfriends pero ikaw? Wala. Paano ba naman kasi, you’re very idealistic! Jaiz, malapit na tayong mag-tapos ng college, isang taon nalang and look at you. Growing old without someone?” bulalas pa ni Kara. “What for? Para may poproblemahin ako? No way, I prefer to take care of my brother rather than care someone else I’m not sure kung mahal ba ako. Sige na nga, aalis na ako. Nandiyan na ang driver naming, baka kung saan ba mapunta ang usapang ito. I don’t want to spoil my nice day.” Sagot naman niya at nag-paalam niya
Totoo, lahat sila ay may mga nobyo na maliban lamang kay Jaizel, hindi kasi ito madaling magka-gusto sa isang lalaki. Marami pa siyang bagay na dapat i-consider bago niya ito magugustuhan. In short, mag-iimbistiga pa siya tungkol sa mga ito and when she find something wrong, tsupe na kaagad. Pero hindi naman siya ganoon ka manhid para hindi makaramdam ng pag-kagusto. Kaya nga lang dalawang beses pa lang siyang nagkagusto sa isang lalaki. Una ay noong nasa Second year High School pa lang siya, si Gosjeorge Fajardo anak ng bestfriend ng kanyang daddy. Childhood friends na sila, pero bago pa lang nadiskubre ni Jaizel ang kanyang nararamdaman para sa lalaki pero hindi rin nag-tagal ang kanyang nararamdaman dahil minsan silang naging malapit at maraming mga bagay na nadiskubrehan si Jaizel tungkol kay Gosjeorge at nawala na ito sa kanyang isip at nag-concentrate na naman sa pag-aaral at sa iba pa niyang mga responsibilities. At sa pangalawang pagkakataon nga ay muli na naman siyang nag-kagusto sa isang lalaki, si Lance Chiong isang sikat na Tennis Player sa isang unibersidad sa Maynila. Nakita lang niya ito sa telebisyon, nag-research siya tungkol dito at habang tumatagal lalo siyang nag-kakagusto sa lalaki. Halos dalawang taon ding nasa isip niya ito, pero lumipas ang ilang araw ay na-realize din niya na hindi sila bagay dahil hindi nga siya kilala ng lalaki kaya minabuti na niyang kalimutan ito. Hindi rin ganoon kadali para sa kanya ang kalimutan si Lance dahil kahit papaano ay naging inspirasyon niya ito sa pagtatapos ng high school niya kung saan naging valedictorian siya at naging inspirasyon din niya ito sa pagiging Freshman niya. Hindi niya alam kung papaano niya nagustuhan ang lalaki basta ang alam niya, sa unang tingin niya dito isinulat na niya agad ang pangalang Lance Chiong sa kanyang cellphone at hinanap niya ito sa Internet at nagpa-bili ng mga Magazines na feature ito. Pero para sa kanya those were all childish reactions at kinakalimutan na niya ito. Willing siyang mag-move on at nagawa naman niya ito, binigyan na naman niya ng kumpletong atensyon ang kanyang pag-aaral. Walang dapat i-meet na expectations si Jaizel galing sa kanyang mga magulang dahil kuntento na ang mga ito sa kahit na ano. Basta huwag lang siyang mag-retain. Nag-iisang babaeng anak si Jaizel at bunso pa, dalawa lamang silang magkakapatid. Ang nakatatanda niyang kapatid na lalaki ay mayroon ng sariling negosyo pero hindi pa nag-aasawa. Pareho silang dalawa, career muna bago lovelife, marami ang nag-kakagusto sa kanila pero wala silang nagugustuhan sa mga ito. They all live a simple life, making it simpler because they don’t have a relationship to take care.
Nakaharap si Jaizel sa kanyang Laptop at tinitingnan ang mga pictures na kuha nung nag-punta siya sa Beijing. Nakangiti siya habang tinitingnan ang mga litrato ng may kumatok sa kanyang pinto. “Jaiz, may nag-hahanap sa’yo sa baba si Mitch daw.” Sabi pa ng kanyang yaya “Sige yaya, susunod na ako,” Sagot naman niya. Si Mitch ay kaibigan niya sa subdivision, marahil ay mangungumusta ito sa kanyang bakasyon kaya dali-dali naman siyang bumaba dala ang pasalubong para sa kaibigan. Nag-kwentuhan nga sila hindi rin nag-tagal ay dumating ang iba pa nilang kaibigan at nag-katuwaan silang lahat, naputol lamang kanilang kasiyahan ng may nag-door bell. Nagulat silang lahat dahil wala ng kulang sa kanila, kaya minabuti ni Jaizel na tingnan kung sino ang nasa gate. Pinapasok na ang bisita sa loob ng kanilang katulong, “Ate, sino yung nag-door bell?” tanong pa niya. Minsan lamang kasi silang magkaroon ng bisita samga oras an iyon dahil office hours at wala ang kanyang mga magulang at kapatid, “Si Lance at yung mga kaibigan niya, madalas yan sila dito, kaibigan siya ng Kuya mo at yung mga magulang naman niya ay kaibigan ng Mommy at Daddy mo. Bago natin silang kapitbahay, isang linggo ang lumipas mula nung tumulak ka papuntang Beijing, saka naman sila dumating. Siyang pala, nandoon sila sa garden. Pauwi na daw ang Kuya mo kaya pumunta na sila dito.” Sagot naman ng matanda, “Yaya, sino po yung mga kaibigan niya? May kilala po ba ako sa mga iyon?” tanong na naman niya “Wala Jaiz dahil bago lang sila dito, yung iba naman nag-babakasyon lang. Tanging ang Kuya mo lang ang kaibigan nila ditto sa Subdivision,” Sagot naman niya. Pumunta siya sa garden dala ang meriendang personal niyang hinanda, sinadya niya talaga ito para malaman kung sino ang mga taong pumasok sa kanilang bahay. Iniwan na niya muna ang kanyang mga kaibigan sa sala na kumakain at nanonood ng T.V. Malapit na siya sa garden ng may nakita siyang pamilyar na mukha, pero hindi na ito nagtagal sa kanyang isipan at dumiretso nalang sa kanyang pupuntahan, nilagayn niya ng ngiti ang kanyang mukha para masayang batiin ang mga bisita. Pero para sa kanya, may ka-plastikan ang ngiting iyon, “Mag-merienda muna kayo, baka kasi mataga;-tagalan pa si Kuya.” Sabi pa niya, napako na ang kanyang atensyon sa mukhang pamilyar sa kanya at namula siya ng maalalang mukha iyon ni Lance. “Salamat ha, ahhm bagong katulong ka ba dito? Ngayon ko lang kasi nakita ang maganda mong mukha” Sabi pa ng isang lalaki, nasaktan siya sa sinabi nito. Aba at tinawag akong katulong! Kung alam niyo lang, naku! Lagot kayo kay Kuya mamaya. Sabi niya sa kanyang isipan. Hindi siya sumagot, sa halip ay tumalikod na lamang at iniwan sila. “Yaya, bakit ba hindi mo sinabi sa akin na mga bastos pala ang bisita ni Kuya? Eh di sana ay nag-Taekwondo uniform nalang ako para sinipa ko na ang mga iyon,” Sabi pa niya. Hindi na niya hinintay ang sagot ng matanda at pumunta na sa kanyang mga kaibigan. “Jaiz, I forgot to tell you. May bago na pala tayong neighbour. Ewan ko lang kung sino, hindi kasi lumalabas ng bahay kaya hindi ako nakapag-kilala.” Sabi pa ni Jussy, hindi na siya sumagot dahil baka kung ano pa ang kanyang masabi at magka-gulo pa. “Jaiz, matanong ko lang, huwag kang magalit ha? Kamusta na pala iyang puso mo? Pounding for Lance Chiong parin ba iyan o pounding for no one na?” tanong pa ni Aria “Huh? Bakit ba napunta sa aking lovelife ang usapan natin? Huwag na nating pag-usapan iyan, past is past noh! At sino nga pala iyang si Lance Chiong? Nakalimutan ko na kung sino man siyang demonyo.” Sagot naman niya, iniba na ni Jaizel ang usapan at nilibang ang kanyang sarili sa pag-kukwento hanggang sa nag-paalam ang kanyang mga kaibigan. Hindi pa rin dumadating ang kanyang kapatid kaya nag-pasya siyang dalhan muli ng maiinom ang mga bisita, “Talaga bang tumawag si Kuya na papuntahin kayo dito sa bahay? Isang oras na ang lumipas, bakit wala parin siya? Hindi ba kayo naboboringan dito?” sabi pa niya “Ahhm, hihintayin nalang naming siya nasabi na rin niya sa amin na baka matatagalan siya ng dating at pahihintayin na lamang niya kami dito. Miss, pwede bang makahingi ng yelo?” sabi pa ni Lance “Sige, ipapadala ko nalang kay yaya.” Sagot pa niya at tumalikod na, nagulat ang mga lalaki dahil sa sinabi niya. “Lance, sino ba iyon?” tanong pa ni Warren “Aba, ewan hindi ko alam. Ngayon ko lang siya nakita dito eh.” Sagot naman niya “Hindi kaya si Jaizel iyon?” tanong pa ni Carlo “Ewan, tanungin nalang natin si Yaya mamaya,” Sagot naman ni Lance.
Dumidilim na ng dumating si Joewheen, ang kapatid ni Jaizel. “Kuya, nandoon ang mga buwisita mo sa garden, mga feeling hari ang kakapal. Tinanong ba naman ako kung bagong katulong ba ako,” Sabi pa niya. “Pasensiyahan mo na sila, pero huwag ka! Gwapo sila diba, Jaiz matanong ko lang sino nga ba iyong crush mo nung fourth year ka na Tennis player?” tanong pa ng kanyang kapatid, ganoon sila alam ng isa’t-isa kung sino ang mga crush nila, hindi na lihim ang iyon sa kanilang dalwa o maski sa kanilang mga magulang. Pero hindi rin lihim sa kanila na ayaw pa nilang dalawa magkaroon ng nobyo o nabya. “Huh? Ba’t mo natanong? Huwag mo ng alamin, matagal na iyong nakabaon sa aking alaala.” Sagot naman niya “Jaiz, I’m just kidding! Of course naaalala ko pa kung sino yun ano. Diba si Lance Chiong? And a good news siya yung----“ putol na sabi ni Joewheen, nakita kasi nito ang kanyang mga kaibigan. “Guys, come here! I’ll introduce you to my sister.” Sabi pa niya at dali-dali namang lumapit ang mga ito “Jaizel, these are my friends. Starting of with, Lance Chiong our new neighbour and I know na kilala mo na siya noon pang high school ka, at ang mga kaibigan niya, si Carlo, Warren, Marky, and Cyon.” Sabi pa ng kanyang Kuya, hindi siya ngumiti sa mga ito. “Jaiz, sorry ha! Napagkamalan kitang katulong sabi pa ni Cyon “Sorry din Jaiz. Promise, hindi na mauulit.” Sabi din ni Lance, “Okey lang yun, mukha naman talaga ako katulong eh. Kuya, maglalakad-lakad muna ako ha, ayaw ko kasing mapaaway o di kaya ay mapag-kamalan ulit na katulong.” Sabi pa niya at naglakad palabas “Jaiz, mag-ingat ka ha! And don’t worry, I won’t spill the bean.” Sabi pa ni Joewheen na tumatawa. Nag-lalakad si Jaizel sa dalampasigan ng may nakita siyang dalawang babae at isang lalaking masayang nag-hahabulan, nilapitan niya ito at tiningnan ang mga mukha pero ni isa sa kanila ay wala siyang nakikilala. Kaya nagpasya siyang makipag-kaibigan sa mga ito. “Hi! Ahhm, bago ba kayo dito? I mean, ngayon ko lang kasi nakita ang mga mukha ninyo, I’ve been spending almost all my afternoons here pero hindi ko pa kayo nakita. By the way, I’m Jaizel, Jaizel Du. Kayo?” sabi pa niya na may ngiti sa kanyang labi. At last sa araw na ito nagawa niya ring ngumiti sa hindi niya kakilala. “I’m Andy, my two sisters Sandy and Sheryl Chiong ang family name namin. Yeah, your right! Bago lang talaga kami dito, a month and a half siguro. But since the first time we stepped here. Palagi na kaming pumupunta dito pero bakit hindi ka naming nakikita?” sabi pa ng lalaking kamukha ni Lance, malakas na ang kanyang loob na kapatid ni Lance ang mga ito dahil noon nalaman niya na apat silang mag-kakapatid, dalawang lalaki at dalawa ring babae. “I spent my vacation somewhere, kaya yun.” Sagot naman niya “Du ka diba? So, siguro kapatid mo si Joewheen. Ikaw ba yung pumuntang Beijing?” tanong pa Sheryl “Yeah, ako yun! I assume kapatid kayo ni Lance? Buti pa kayo alam agad na kapatid ko si Joewheen, habang si Lance ay pinagkamalan akong katulong.” Sabi pa niya na nakangiti, noon lang niya naalala ang mga mukha nila, nakita na niya ang mga ito sa isang magazine na nabili niya noon, nangarap pa nga siya na sana ay maging kaibigan niya ang mga ito para naman mailakad siya kay Lance pero noon yun ngayon ay iba na. Kapitbhay na nila ito, abot kamay na niya ang lalking noon ay pinapanaginip niya. Ngayon na napagpasyahan na niyang kalimutan ito at mag-move on. “Hay naku, ganyan talaga yang si Kuya Lance hindi nag-iisip bago mag-salita, pasensyahan mo na ha? Pero kahit ganoon yun mabait din naman siya, mapagmahal, matalino at higit sa lahat gwapo pa. Halos nga lahat ng babae sa kanilang paaralan may gusto sa kanya. Pero wala namang nagugustuhan si Lance sa kanila. Self-confessed na mahirap siyang magka-gusto sa mga babae.” Sabi pa ni Sandy, “Huh? Bakit mo naman nasabi yon? Teka nga change topic tayo huwag si Kuya ang pag-uusapan natin.” Sabi pa ni Andy, “Jaiz, natural ba talaga sa pamilya ninyo ang pagiging friendly?” tanong pa ni Sheryl “Medyo, bakit mo naman natanong?” sagot naman niya “Wala lang, kasi yung Mom mo ang unang nakipag-kaibigan sa Parents naming tapos saka naman lumapit si Kuya Joewheen para makipag-kaibigan sa amin. Tapos ikaw, ang bait niyo naman sana lahat ng tao pareha ninyo” sabi naman ni Sheryl. Tawa lang ang sinagot niya, nag-kwnetuhan pa sila at nag-yaya ng umuwi. Nalaman ni Jaizel ang dahilan kung bakit ditto na nakatira ang pamilya ni Lance, na lugi pala ang mga negosyo nila at hindi na ganoon kalaki ang kinikita ng parents niya, tanging ang Beach Resort lamang nila Mactan Island ang natira sa kanila kay nag-pasya na silang sa Cebu mamalagi for good. May pag-alalang naramdaman si Jaizel para sa kanyang mga kaibigan pero mas lalo siyang nag-alala para kay Lance, hindi niya alam kung bakit pero ang pagiging parte nito noon sa kanyang buhay ang dinahilan niya sa kanyang sarili.
“Jaiz, may lalakarin ka ba mamaya pagkagaling mo sa school?” tanong pa ni Joewheen, graduating student si Jaizel sa isang unibersidad sa kanilang probinsya sa cursong Business Management, Dean’s Lister siya doon at ibig sabihin ay Scholar siya. Walang binayarang tuition fee ang kanyang mga magulang para sa kanya simula ng nag-high school siya, palagi siyang scholar at may allowance pa galing sa paaralan kaya ang perang dapat sana ay para sa pag-aaral niya, sa bangko mapupunta. “Wala naman, maliban na lamang kung may kailangan akong bilhin sa Mall para sa School bukas, pero sa tingin ko wala naman. Bakit Kuya?” sagot naman niya, “Ako ang susundo sa’yo mamaya, mag-shopping tayo at kakain sa labas” sabi pa ng kanyang kapatid “Ano naman kaya ang nakain mo at nag-yaya kang mag-shopping, pero sige hindi ako tatanggi. The last time na nag-punta ako sa mall ay yung hindi pa ako naka-punta sa Beijing and that’s almost two months. Ayaw ko kasing makakita ng maraming tao, pero dahil ikaw papayag ako.” Sagot naman niya “Sige, pick you up at 5:30.” Sabi pa ni Joewheen at nag-paalam na sila sa isa’t-isa. May sarili silang sasakyan at driver, may personal assistant-secretary si Joewheen habang si Jaizel naman ay may Yaya, pero hindi na niya ito pinasasama sa paaralan niya, nahihiya kasi siyang may sumusunod sa kanya. Alas singko pa lamang ay nag-hahanda na siya, nag-paalam sa kanyang mga kaibigan at pumunta sa Cafeteria para doon hintayin ang kanyang kapatid. “Hi! Ahhm, sabi ng Kuya mo ako na daw ang susundo sa’yo may emergency kasi kaya sinabi niyang tayo na lamang daw ang mamasyal at nag-papabili pala siya ng shirt, kulay blue daw tapos bumili ka rin daw ng kahit ano para sa’yo.” sabi pa ng boses na nanggagaling sa kanyang likuran pag-lingon niya ay nanlaki agad ang kanyang mata ng makita niya si Lance “Huh? Yun ba sinabi niya sa’yo, ako din eh may importanteng meeting na pupuntahan kaya hindi rin ako makaktuloy. Nandito lang ako para mag-merienda tapos babalik na ako sa Classroom.” Sagot naman niya, kumukulo na ang dugo niya, buti na lamang at nakapag-isip siya ng magandang isasagot kung hindi lagot siya. Alam niyang pinlano iyon ng Kuya niya, pero wala siyang planong makasama si Lance dahil away niyang magka-gusto siyang muli ditto, “Ahh ganoon ba, sige hihintayin nalang kita boring kasi sa bahay wala akong magawa, gusto ko ring makabawi sa ginawa ko sa’yo.” Sabi pa ni Lance “Hindi, huwag nalang. Matatagalan ako ng uwi, magpapasundo nalang ako sa driver. Yung ginawa mo sa akin noon? Wala iyon, hindi naman ako pikon eh.” Sagot naman niya na nanginginig “Jaiz, sino yang kasama mo? Akala ko ang Kuya Joewheen mo ang susundo sa’yo, hindi naman yan si Joewheen ahh. Familiar ang mukha niya, OMG! Lance? Lance Chiong? Jaizel, ang daya mo hindi mo kami sinabihan na kaibigan pala kayo ng long time-----“sabi pa ni Izza “Shut up! Please, kaibigan siya ng Kuya ko. Nag-punta siya ditto para sabihing cancelled ang lakad naming ni Kuya at tamang-tama sind kasi diba may meeting pa tayo para sa School Paper?” sabi pa niya na mas lalong nanginginig ang boses “Anong meeting? Wala naman tayong meeting ahh, next week pa iyon ikaw talaga nagka-amnesia na nakita lang si Lance. Hi Lance! I’m Izza, Jaizel’s friend alam mo noon ko pa pinapangarap na makilala ka. Naikwento ka kasi ni Jaizel sa amin noon, mga three years ago pero hindi ko parin nakakalimutan dahil ang gwapo mo nung may ipinakita siyang picture sa akin. Alam mo idol ka niya sa Tennis, she’s a varsity player of Tennis way way back in High School at pati rin ngayong College na siya, isa pa, Taekwondo player din siya Black Belter. Master na siya and also a swimmer and a basketball player. The only weakness that she has in sports is Volleyball.” Sabi pa ng babae, namumula na si Jaizel sa inis. Hindi niya sana gusting malaman pa ito ni Lance pero nangyari na ang dapat mangyari, dapat na lang niyang pigilan sa pag-uusap ang dalawa dahil baka mabulgar pa ni Izza na minsan niyang naging crush ang lalaki. “Kuya, nag-bago isip ko, halika na may bibilhin pa pala ako. Izza, salamat ha! Bye!” hinila na niya si Lance at sumunod naman ito.

My LoVe FoR tHeM

Mahal ko siya at sabi niya Mahal din

niya ako. Mahal namin ang

isa't-isa ngunit and tadhana

na ang nag-sabi na hindi

kami ang itinakda....

Mahal ko siya, sinabi din

niyang mahal niya ako. Hindi

ako naniwala. Ayaw kong

kong ,anuhay sa isang pangakong

walang kasiguraduhan....

Mahal niya ako, hindi ko siya

mahal, pero dapat kong piliting

mahalin siya dahil balang araw

dapat maging kami. Ngunit, kaya

ko kayang ipakita sa kanya na

mahal ko siya kahit na ang sinasabi

ng puso ay iba????

Mahal ko siya, ngunit hindi niya ako mahal. Pinipilit

ko siyang mahalin ako pero matuturuan kaya ang isang

pusong mahalin ka kahit alam mong hindi niya

kaya??

Hindi namin mahal ang isa't-isa,

Pero kami ang palaging pinagtagpo

ng tadhana, paano kaya tayo

magkalayo gayong gsto nila tayong

magtagpo....

I LOVE HIM...

THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT, BUT WHEN I KNEW

ABOUT MY BESTFRIEND'S LOVE FOR YOU...

I DECIDED TO GIVE UP...

I'D RATHER HURT MYSELF THAN HURT THE PERSON

THAT MADE ME FEEL COMPLETE AND MADE ME AS

THE PERSON I AM NOW.....

Freedom

I thought I was free... Free from

Choosing who to love and who to hate... but

now, I realize that I was wrong. I'm walking in the aisle

of our chrurch, minutes from now I will be married

but not with the guy I love... They imprisoned

me and force me to marry my mortal enemy...

My Old Friends

I thought I have the greatest best friend in the world, an overall person. My cousin who seemed to be like my sister, my teacher, my Ate and the shoulder that I will be crying on every time I have problems and the first person who will know the happiness that I am feeling when I find out that my crush likes me or whatever things. I never thought that she will betray me or she will be jealous at me, well, I may say she has financial problems but despite that for me she’s almost perfect. My parents treated her like their own child because our house is already her second home.
She’s older than me for three years but it’s not so obvious because I’m taller than her for few inches. We hang out together and do charity works together. If I’m not permitted to go out, she’s always there to explain to my parents the real thing and I will already be permitted, that’s how my parents trust her.
But when she became college and I was still in second year high school, things started to change. She got her new set of friends while I am left all alone. My mom started to notice the distance that we are having that’s why, she introduces me to the other teenagers in our place and I found new company through them but still I am feeling different when I’m with her. That’s why I’m going near to her and tried to talk to her but she change indeed, I think she feels that she don’t know me anymore. She’s already with my enemies, I isolated myself from other people, I’m not going out of our house and I’m entertaining myself with the books that I have.
Then, I envy my classmates who are boasting that they have many friends in their neighbourhood, sp I decided to start all over again, I left my past behind and made a new beginning, right now, I’m still seeing my former best friend and I realize that she was not worthy of being one because I just knew that there are others who are better than her.
I can’t say that treating her as my best friend was the greatest mistake I ever did, I even thought that maybe it was my fault because I believe in the things that she’s saying, she’s destroying my crushes so that I won’t like them anymore and she will get it from me, actually, we have shared many things and I’m doing my best not to regret those times. I loved her, and I will always do, I don’t know if she also loves me but at least I never hurt her because before our friendship became completely broken, I tried my best to fix it but I think my best wasn’t enough for it.
At this moment, I’m with the people who treated me as their friends, they may not be as perfect as She is at least they are true and loyal.

May 2007

I was once walking on the road together with my friends, we were distributing letters for a certain church activity and we were gathering funds for it when we passed by a house with group of guys dancing. We were attracted to their moves, so we decided to stop by and watch them, it so happen that they were my friend’s friend… We were introduced. Actually I didn’t feel something when I knew them; I admire their moves and grooves but not their own self.
As days pass by, we kept on dropping by that house and I begin to notice a guy who is tall, white and has a Chinese appearance, very near to my type of guy except for the fact that he has vices, I thought he’s perfect and my heart begin to beat faster for him. Then, when I was about to tell my friends about my feeling for him, I heard one of my close friends saying about her feelings for the same guy. My heart wants to express my feeling for him but my mind is telling me not to, because maybe my friend will forbid me of liking him and she will break the friendship that we are having.
Afraid of loosing the friendship, I decided to hide what I feel but later on, that guy went to our house and express his feelings for me, I want to tell him the truth but I can’t, I’m afraid! Then later on, I decided to stay away from them, although I already hurt myself and the guy that I love I still can’t take seeing my close friend flirting at him.
Yes, I’m such a coward person, I didn’t fight for my love but how can I when I’m sure that everyone will disagree on what I will be doing. I hurt him, and I hurt myself but at least I didn’t hurt my Friend.

My Kindness

Ever since in my life, I'm born with a kind family... When someone needs help my parents are always there to help or to give something.
Now that I'm already grown-up... I also learn how to be kind and to be like my parents.... At this moment, I need to share something, not money, nor fame or intelligence. I need to share or fully give the guy I love to my BESTFRIEND, I thought what I feel for him was just nothing until I realize that I was falling for him, thinking that he didn't love me, I'm still showing up but feels hurt when I see him talking to Her, later on, he asked me to talk to him and he told me that he likes me... I want to answer him the real thing but I was thinking of my best friend… That's why I lied to him and told him that I already have a boyfriend... I was hurt and I felt that he also feel the same... But I can't leave my best friend just because of him....
Later on, as days pass by, I thought what I did was right but I just understand that it wasn't. He left everyone and went to a place we don't know where, asking why???
He knew the real thing... My love for him, and my sacrifice because of my best friend... and I cried when I read a letter saying, 'I thought you love me, but why won't you fight for your love, if she's really your best friend, she's willing to accept the truth and leave us alone being happy.... But it's unfair... I can't take your kindness, that you don't know that you are already hurting someone because of it....’

Confussions

Teenager's life is full of challenges,

but the hardest part of

that life is when we make choices

Choice of where to go,

whether we'll take the left or right.

On what to answer to questions.

In choosing between a yes or a no.

teens will often have what ifs in their mind

Oftentimes, they don't know what to do.

They don't even know where to go.