My Old Friends

I thought I have the greatest best friend in the world, an overall person. My cousin who seemed to be like my sister, my teacher, my Ate and the shoulder that I will be crying on every time I have problems and the first person who will know the happiness that I am feeling when I find out that my crush likes me or whatever things. I never thought that she will betray me or she will be jealous at me, well, I may say she has financial problems but despite that for me she’s almost perfect. My parents treated her like their own child because our house is already her second home.
She’s older than me for three years but it’s not so obvious because I’m taller than her for few inches. We hang out together and do charity works together. If I’m not permitted to go out, she’s always there to explain to my parents the real thing and I will already be permitted, that’s how my parents trust her.
But when she became college and I was still in second year high school, things started to change. She got her new set of friends while I am left all alone. My mom started to notice the distance that we are having that’s why, she introduces me to the other teenagers in our place and I found new company through them but still I am feeling different when I’m with her. That’s why I’m going near to her and tried to talk to her but she change indeed, I think she feels that she don’t know me anymore. She’s already with my enemies, I isolated myself from other people, I’m not going out of our house and I’m entertaining myself with the books that I have.
Then, I envy my classmates who are boasting that they have many friends in their neighbourhood, sp I decided to start all over again, I left my past behind and made a new beginning, right now, I’m still seeing my former best friend and I realize that she was not worthy of being one because I just knew that there are others who are better than her.
I can’t say that treating her as my best friend was the greatest mistake I ever did, I even thought that maybe it was my fault because I believe in the things that she’s saying, she’s destroying my crushes so that I won’t like them anymore and she will get it from me, actually, we have shared many things and I’m doing my best not to regret those times. I loved her, and I will always do, I don’t know if she also loves me but at least I never hurt her because before our friendship became completely broken, I tried my best to fix it but I think my best wasn’t enough for it.
At this moment, I’m with the people who treated me as their friends, they may not be as perfect as She is at least they are true and loyal.