May 2007

I was once walking on the road together with my friends, we were distributing letters for a certain church activity and we were gathering funds for it when we passed by a house with group of guys dancing. We were attracted to their moves, so we decided to stop by and watch them, it so happen that they were my friend’s friend… We were introduced. Actually I didn’t feel something when I knew them; I admire their moves and grooves but not their own self.
As days pass by, we kept on dropping by that house and I begin to notice a guy who is tall, white and has a Chinese appearance, very near to my type of guy except for the fact that he has vices, I thought he’s perfect and my heart begin to beat faster for him. Then, when I was about to tell my friends about my feeling for him, I heard one of my close friends saying about her feelings for the same guy. My heart wants to express my feeling for him but my mind is telling me not to, because maybe my friend will forbid me of liking him and she will break the friendship that we are having.
Afraid of loosing the friendship, I decided to hide what I feel but later on, that guy went to our house and express his feelings for me, I want to tell him the truth but I can’t, I’m afraid! Then later on, I decided to stay away from them, although I already hurt myself and the guy that I love I still can’t take seeing my close friend flirting at him.
Yes, I’m such a coward person, I didn’t fight for my love but how can I when I’m sure that everyone will disagree on what I will be doing. I hurt him, and I hurt myself but at least I didn’t hurt my Friend.